February 2012
12 posts
Got my wisdom teeth removed. Hurts so bad T_T and the painkillers make me feel less than sober, so many mixed emotions about that. Been super depressed since I woke up from the surgery. First day at my third job in the morning, then class tomorrow night. So exhausted…
sigh why is life so awesome and hellish at the same time. Between working, college, the boyfriend and the munchkin, I have no free time and I’m running myself ragged. But i can’t complain because those mean so much to me, every long day and sleepless night is worth it <3
But I still find myself wanting to dive back into a chemical romance to escape… But I can’t....
WatchI have no idea why this amused me so much…
So one of my wisdom teeth decided to claw its way into my mouth >.> it cut up the inside of my cheek and it hurts too much to eat anything. Getting it pulled tomorrow hopefully
“Nothing left to say
Take my breath away
Whispering your name
Tie me up in...”
– Delilah
Pulling an all nighter working on my design class project. Drowning myself in creative outlets, watching music videos and thinking way too hard. And drinking way too much coffee. Nights like tonight… They remind me of who I really am <3
Really depressed… It sucks that even though someone may mean the world to you and be all you ever think about, they can still feel like they’re being taken for granted. And you can make them feel unappreciated without realizing it. Even if nothing could be further from the truth. I hate that I live life in my head and can’t always get my thoughts and feelings across to the people...
“Drive, drive, drive, drive! I don’t wanna get caught. We’ll say,...”
To the guy who tried so hard to break me down. You told me I’d never do anything or be anything. You told me I’d never break out of my old habits and that I’d always be a f*** up. That I didn’t deserve anyone to treat me right. That I was ugly, inside and out. And that I’d never find anyone better than you. You called me immature, irresponsible, stupid, hopeless, and...
January 2012
6 posts
“Babe, you’ve married a soul that won’t come home at night. I just...”
– Envy on the coast <3
“Oh, Oh. You’re my punching bag, and
If I’m garbage, you’re a...”
– Eminent
hm
been making some pretty big changes. doing stuff I really shouldn’t. I’m about to move out. I feel like the second the gate’s open, I’m taking off
honestly i’m kinda scared that I’ll lose myself once I’m on my own.
It’s like the more freedom I have, the more I mess up.
November 2010
5 posts
i think i'm coming to realize some things
starting to understand what i really think, what i really want
which is technically good
but he’s gonna hate me for this.
:D
I got back into my tublr :) because joe is brilliant and suggested I try getting into it online instead of from my phone app. awesome.
hm. soo since last time. I moved, turned 17, and started driving. gradually moving past the “i hate everything and everyone” stage I hit during the move, and onto the “omg when the heck can I get out of here and hit Austin for college”...
June 2010
1 post
“You’re a hot mess, and I’m falling for you. And I’m like, hot...”
– Cobra Starship
March 2010
2 posts
“It’s a quick trick, pop it out like lipstick. Knick knack paddy whack,...”
– Botdf
February 2010
2 posts
1 tag
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January 2010
1 post
This Tumbl will change your life.
hah.. I just got this book called “This Book Will Change Your Life”.
it’s got daily activities that you do, everything from throwing away something you like to secretly flipping people off all day, to hosting a protest. lots of interesting stuff. and i’mm start tumbling how every day goes :)
December 2009
1 post
November 2009
1 post
COURAGE WOLF DELCARES...
omgtheresmichael:
All of the Courage Wolf sayings I could find.
Stand up. Fight.
No vampires in Twilight. Only sparkle fairies.
Seize the day. By the throat.
She fucked my best friend. I fucked her mother.
Donate blood. Ask for a gun and a bucket.
Falling is not defeat. Not getting up is.
Take a shit in the valley of the shadow of death.
An obstacle is only something you haven’t torn...
October 2009
7 posts
“I’m throwing rocks at your window
We’re leaving this place...”
– Brand New Day - Rick Starr
“If people where music i would be comical by personality and hip-hop from...”
– Big Joe Yo (via mrg5)
Me: (Myspace status) I hate to say it, but I think I'm in need of attention
James: ...wha.. what? the invcincible Laura? finally admitting she may need help? no way.
Me: Hey >:/ lol I don't need help. I said attention. theres a difference.
James: Only in your mind, baby bear.
Me: :( I broke up with tobi last night
James: I know baby doll. I'm sorry. Are you doing ok?
Me: .. how did you know? and no, but i'm better than yesterday.
James: because I read minds. want me to come over?
Me: Oh. Makes sense. yeah, that would be nice...
James: alright, give me an hour. You know, I can always take him for a ride.....
Me: NO. I don't need him to die, thats ok.
James: I don't drive that bad.
Me: Not even chuck norris would get in the car with you.
Life is not a waiting room.
And
I seriously can’t decide how to feel about this, no matter how hard I try
And it’s becoming quite obvious that te two sleeping pills I took are no match for the four cups of espresso I’ve had
Insomnia. Is. Teh Suck.
“He said
Baby you sold your soul for an ounce of attention
Gaining the world...”
So...
I broke up with tobi today… Like two hours ago.. And im still pretty messed up.. Even though after what I just put him through I have no right to be upset… And i’m still trying to convince myself that I did it because I wanted to.. Not because Trevor wanted me to, Nick wanted me to, jj wanted me to, James wanted me to, Jesse wanted me to… I thought I would feel good about...
September 2009
3 posts
“I was so headstrong
Said I can leave, —I can leave—.
But now I...”
“You’ll lie there at night alone and weep
But you’re no better than...”
“Can somebody show me
The kind of affection
That you only see in the...”
– The spill canvas
August 2009
1 post
Long time
No post.
Quick update;;
Planning my sweet sixteen
Doing great with my boyfriend
My bestfriend is in love with me
And maybe vice versa
My ex is stalking me
My girl bestfriend is
epicawesomerockoncrazy
Went to a live show tonight
Youth group in the morning
Then seeig Kevin and misha
Then seeig nick and Mycal
Schools going good
Never sleeping anymore
Any questions? Txt...
July 2009
9 posts
I've made a huge mistake
A horrible, horrible mistake
And I can tell you right now at least three people, including me, are going to be extremely, completely devastated by it.
Time was never what we needed.
A short rant from a short girl.
i’m sick of your games,
your constant turnarounds,
your inability to make a decision,
you playing with my head,
confusing the heck out of me,
the guilt trips
the “talks”
being unable to say any of this without it blowing up
the constant frustration
and you keeping me in constant distress for the past month.
Thank you.
“Hands into fists, static in my head, face to face with loneliness, what did I...”
relapse or withdrawal
you just hit that wall sometimes.
and the only option would seem to be falling back
because sticking it out would be one of the hardest things you’ve ever had to do. at least at the moment.
and you know that in the long run, the struggle might be worth it. because you’d be free.
but at the same time you know you may not survive, hitting that wall.
and you’re stuck with that...
I really, really need to talk to someone. Nothing too specific. Just everything over the last few weeks.
I take that back. I need to talk to kuala (Nick), because I tell him everything and he always fixes it. Or at least makes me feel better.
And about a few specific things. That I’m worried or frustrated about or just need to get off my chest.
But he’s currently at the mall with...
I'm
Flippin
Bored.
:(