relapse or withdrawal
you just hit that wall sometimes.
and the only option would seem to be falling back
because sticking it out would be one of the hardest things you’ve ever had to do.
at least at the moment.
and you know that in the long run, the struggle might be worth it. because you’d be free.
but at the same time you know you may not survive, hitting that wall.
and you’re stuck with that constant notion.
that even though you could ‘fix’ everything, you’d lose all your work by doing so.
but at the same time. you work so hard, and it seems like you’ve done nothing.
and that even years from now, if you’d stayed strong the whole entire time, all it would take is a moment to lose it all again, and be sucked back into the same cycle of .addiction.quitting.withdrawal.relapse.
time kills.
